What you want vs. What you can't have

I have been struggling recently with a human characteristic that is in all of us in some way shape or form:  Wanting what we can have.  It seems that we as humans are constantly striving for things that we cannot have.  Yes, I believe everything is available to us if we choose to create it, but we can also choose to create inevitable situations that will only lead to your own heart break and ache and the re percussive  energy of the choices we have made.  I, for some unknown reason, have made the choice to sit right in the middle of this energy and have talked mighty talk to many about it, but sat right in the middle of it letting my own addictions to certain energies and beings progress when all the while knowing that I could not have this and still made the choice, not just once, but several times to sweep "reality" under the rug in hopes that maybe, just maybe ...

Here is the experience that lead to the above awareness: 
I was recently at a street festival with my friend where I bought a very simple silver ring.  The minute I put that simple silver band on my finger ... I changed, the energy around me changed and suddenly I felt noticed in my otherwise invisible world.  It was as if this simple band of silver gave me permission and those around me to "play."  To make the choice to go after something I couldn't or they couldn't have, because suddenly, I was not "available" just by putting this ring on my left hand wedding finger. 

Do we feel like we don't deserve all that can be ours?  I totally feel I deserve to be loved but won't allow myself to be loved.  I feel I have the right to something that can be ALL mine, but am always setting my sites on  something that I can't have.  Is it that we have set ourselves up so many times to fail in love that we automatically go there because its comfortable or we don't really know what to do? 

Two of my dearest and closest friends have recently embarked on a journey of new.  A new energy relationship that my heart absolutely aches and longs for.  They are both very self aware and live large as individuals, but live even larger as a couple who are together as one, not one together. 

I find myself with "hooks" in a few people in my life.  I wish to now start becoming aware of these hooks and gently and lovingly remove them.  Sometimes that may come with pushing the hooks through rather than always pulling them out. 

Me that be Me
Shawn