Good Question ...

This is the very first attempt at "blogging." 

Until recently, I have not really considered blogging about anything.  Since my heart and soul are going through some painful human adjustments, so to speak I am feeling a need to release some of this here.  It is not meant towards anyone personally accept myself, of course and will try never to mention names.  My biggest concern is that my words be misunderstood in anyway, again ... this is about ME that be ME and no one else.  I accept full responsibility for my words and opinions ... so here goes.

I am not even sure where to start, here or there?  I have been using the analogy of being in the "bowl" of lessons right now.  A term brought in by a dear friend's Grandma.  It seems choices being made by me and a lot of my friends are bringing extreme and intense lesson.  What does this mean ... ?  Good question! I have been pondering this for several weeks now and in doing so have become completely and totally sad and discouraged.  In ME.  I am fully aware of the choices I make, have made and am aware of the repercussions they create and the responsibility I take in the creation of this energy. 
Does this make my heart and soul feel any less pain ... no.
Does it provide any comfort to the human mind ... no. 
It does provide a realization that my life really needs to change.  I am tired of having my feet knocked out from underneath me time and time again.  How long can someone let this happen, you may ask? As long as I continue to allow this to happen, that's how long.  It seems so simple ... He thinks.

When all is bitched about and said and done ... I look at my plate of choices in this life and feel very lucky to have so many options ahead of me.  If I could only make ME my favorite waste of time?  You are right ... its only a choice away.

I guess this is enough for now ...

Me that be Me  Shawn